I have spent an hour or so casting my eye over my posts from the past two or so years from both this, and my other blog . There's sure been a pile of highs and lows in there! Things I wrote and then came weirdly true with in a few weeks - and things I wrote about that I never in a million years thought would happen to me (but did), or thought would happen (and haven't).
There's quite a list of half finished posts - usually abandoned because a more interesting pastime came up than sitting in front of the computer navel gazing - or because circumstances had led me to take a bit of a detour (or maybe a short left hand turn) on that particular days meanderings.
And my goodness there's been some detours lately. Some days I feel like I'm still standing on the side of the road wondering what the heck happened to the traffic!
And as well as working through my own ''stuff'' (reluctant to say road crashes...) I have spent a truckload of time in the past few days supporting FOUR different people who are going through heartbreak - all of different kinds, but still all heartbreak relating to their adult relationships. Life is not fair. No it's not. I have got a hard time for saying that - but stuff it. It's just not. And when I look at all of these four, regardless of the parts they may, or may not, have played in this heartbreak it's still not bloody fair! Especially when the heartbreak-ER'S, without exception, are trucking on through life, happy as Larry and his wife. And don't be giving me this ''it will all work out for the best'' stuff (because, reader I bet that's what you're thinking....), because you well know, that when you're standing in a pile of broken glass the last thing on your mind is how marvellous the world is going to look through a new windscreen.
One day I will finish some of those posts. Maybe update them. Maybe publish them as is, as a snapshot of a moment in time. But not today. Today I will just sit. Cry with, and for, my friends. Sympathise that life is not fair. And hope that much like a half finished post, these stories too might need updating with happy endings in a year or two.